|You’ve made the decision to step into freedom……Below is your first step to freedom from shame and the debilitating impact of abuse, failures, and sin on our hearts, lives, and relationships and most importantly the relationship with our Father and ourselves. But with God on our side, as we encounter His heart and His Word on this journey of healing, we can live in the glorious freedom Jesus died to give us! Let’s go!|
Luke 7:36 – 38 NKJV
“Then one of the Pharisees asked Him to eat with him. And He went to the Pharisee’s house, and sat down to eat. And behold, a woman in the city who was a sinner, when she knew that Jesus sat at the table in the Pharisee’s house, brought an alabaster flask of fragrant oil, and stood at His feet behind Him weeping; and she began to wash His feet with her tears, and wiped them with the hair of her head; and she kissed His feet and anointed them with the fragrant oil.”
“Today, the beginning. Not easy, not battle free but the beginning of my life. I have examined the places I’ve been which now seem a lifetime away and truly am ready to let them go. Like helium balloons when I release them, I know not how they will turn out, where they will go or their consequence somewhere else. I only know I’m ready to let go.
Ready to stop being afraid, ready to face the reality of my life, myself, my relationships and the consequence of it all. I have such a peace about it, so peaceful although I know I’m about to face the Goliath of my life, I know I do not face him in my own strength. He’s too big, too strong-but my God shall fight for me and bring me the victory. His wisdom will slay the giant; his strategy, his direction and I am looking to my Father for knowledge and wisdom.
All my life I have looked to man or within myself and even my own understanding for answers and direction. But my Father has called me to his side to walk with him in complete surrender, in complete trust. No one knows me but him. He made me, molded me. I have hidden away, sold myself short. Sold myself! Sold myself, sold myself. But he has redeemed me, shined the light on my beauty and said ‘you are mine none can pluck you out of my hand, none can harm you. Trust my strong arm, trust my voice, my Revelation and move.
Leave your father’s house, leave what you have perceived as truth and walk in my truth, the reality of heaven, the reality of eternity. You are eternal, set your mind, your plans, and your purpose on eternal things. You are a pilgrim, sojourner, a citizen of heaven. Let’s not do things according to this world any longer. Come, walk with me.’
Yes, Lord! I say yes. My heart is wholly yours, given to your desires, your plans, your voice, your purposes. There is nothing this world has for me. It holds no appeal, no luster, and no prize. Only you, my God, are my prize, my goal, my portion, my desire, my purpose and my pursuit.
I am wholly given to your love, your voice, your heart song. Father help me stay on the path that leads to your heart and life. Keep my eyes wide open! I want to see you!”
Letting go. Who even knows how to do that? I’ve been told many times in my life to let It go. Just let it go. But who has ever told us how to do that? I’m not sure anyone can even articulate it. And I’m not going to try in this moment.
But you know those things that you’ve held onto. You know what they are. In fact, as I’m saying this, you can see them in your heart. The only thing I know about letting go is placing everything that I know that I’m holding onto in my hands and lifting them up to the sky. Lifting them up to the Father in heaven.
And saying “God, I don’t know how to do this letting go thing. But in the best way that I know how, I lift all these things that I’m carrying, that I’m holding onto, that are my prize, or that have my life, and I’m giving them to you and releasing my hold on them. Please give me the power to completely let them go.”
That’s the only way I know how to let go. And so far so good. Every time I’ve done that, he has taken them and when I try to take them back his Holy Spirit reminds me and I release them again. Until one day I don’t feel their hold on my life anymore and that’s when I know I’ve truly let them go. And that’s what we’re doing in this moment.
We’re letting go of our need to hold on to hurt, hold on to injustice, and hold on to the pain and the trauma. Releasing our need to be identified and defined by the things that have wounded us. The things that have caused us hurt and pain and the people who caused it. Choosing to take a brand new path in life that we have no idea what it looks like. But we trust that as long as God goes before us we’re going to be okay. During your meditations, this week, make a list of those things that you know you’re holding onto or even think you’re holding onto.
Pray and ask the Lord to reveal to you what those things are and write them down. This may take several days and that’s okay you have plenty of time. As you’re making your list the Lord may have you park on a few of the things that you write down and mourn them. You may begin to cry. You may begin to hurt. No condemnation.
Allow yourself this opportunity. It’s part of the purging and letting go process. Once you’ve made the list no matter how short or long it is, be sure to provide any detail that you would like to or that God shows you about each item. Take the list, hold it up to God and say to him what I said to him about letting in the paragraphs above or you can use your own words to speak your heart to him about letting those things go.
Choose to do whatever you would like to do with the list you made. (I tore mine into a million little pieces and took them to the cross. You can do this or burn the list in the fireplace)….whatever is symbolic to you for letting go!
Luke 7:48 – 50 NKJV
“Then He said to her, ‘Your sins are forgiven.’ And those who sat at the table with Him began to say to themselves, ‘Who is this who even forgives sins?’ Then He said to the woman, ‘Your faith has saved you. Go in peace’.”